Junkanoo

I have this problem with alcohol

late at night

I call up old friends and

spill out my secret thoughts

I ask them to validate my memories

I’m always afraid that I’ll remember things

the wrong way

I have this problem with cigarettes

late at night I’ll smoke them

alone on the porch

The taste reignites burnt out memories

and I call my friends and

verify the validity of the memory

and what it means to me

I have this problem with writing

late at night

I have this problem with hiding

my confession and guilt

late at night behind

prose and booze

I have this problem

where I spend too much time

in train cars and deserts

I have this problem

where I remember you

the wrong way